My Greatest Fear

I see my last blog entry was about all of the rain we've been getting. Well, the rain hasn't slowed up. The last 24 hours have been quite stormy, complete with tornado warnings, sirens, power outages, etc... Just to preface this, my family and I are huge weather fanatics. So, I'm at work yesterday, my husband is out of town, and my two boys are home alone all day. (I hate leaving them home alone all day!!! Anyway!) I was online checking the weather and noticed a large band of storms coming. Being the "good" (maybe overprotective) mom, I called the boys to make sure they were inside and to let them know a storm was coming. Now I feel fine, until the storm starts rolling through my area. The big window in my office, shows the skies turning black, the rain pouring down, the electricity and telephones go out, and then the tornado sirens begin. We all have to shuffle down the hallways to an inside room, while we listen to the wind howl and reports of a tornado touching down. Just like someone flipping a switch, I get this horrible panic sense worrying about the boys home alone. The storm that we are experiencing would have just rolled through there area several minutes before. It was such a horrible feeling waiting to be dismissed from our secure area, until the time I could call the boys. Of course, they were find, but... It has always been my greatest fear that something would happen to one of the boys in my family and I wouldn't be there. Not that I would be able to do anything, but just the fact of being there would make me feel better. I guess it's the small notion that I am somehow in control of the situation. Although, when I watch these huge storms roll through, it is then that I realize how little control I really have, and the massive amount of power God has.